Run Away

The past few days have been pretty rough to say the LEAST! I had completely and utterly broke down Wednesday due to a change within my daily routine and schedule. The thing is every night I prepare for my next day- this includes meals, gym times, naps, work and relaxation. I like to have my days planned out to a tee to avoid stress and ensure I can get everything done I possibly can.

I ended up waking up around 9am on Wednesday but I was not concerned as my friend Megan said she could work for me if I needed and I wanted to get my gym hours in no matter what- it is my number one priority right now. I message Megan around 9am, 11am, 1pm, 1:30pm... hmmm by this time I was panicking because I had to be at work for 3pm. Unfortunately, Megan didn't get any of my messages till 2pm due to back-up and my other co-worker could not make it in to work till 5pm. Just my luck my boss also had a meeting at 3:30pm so there was no way around this obstacle. I ran out of the gym in my sports bra and shorts covered by sweat pants, a sweater and some SWEATY hair. NO SHOWER- YUM :) I called my boyfriend on the bus crying because I was overwhelmed- although Megan said she could work I had in my mind she was GOING to and because of the diet and workout stress I broke down. 

Finally at work, frustrated, sweaty and upset I glance at the May calendar to see if our boss has posted any hours for the month of May. Just to top off my day I see that my hours have been reduced to 18-20 hours a week. WOW! I can't survive off of this- again I break down and start crying. I immediately call my Dad for advice and possibly options - the idea of going home crossed my mind as a last resort but you have to do what you have to do and quite frankly 20 hours a week is just NOT enough. I again start crying because the though of leaving the city I have grown to love and friends I have made seems unfair and I WILL NOT LEAVE!!

This clearly was NOT my day and my co-worker Jessy came in for me at 5pm so I could go to the gym and finish my workout, I mean I was already in my gear and ready to go! Ukkk- I went and as upset as I was I finished everything off- THANK GOD! Now the only thing I wanted to do was go home and curl in a little ball and SLEEP. This is what I did home to bed and hope that tomorrow would bring a much better outcome.

An ice cream bar would have made me feel better today! To bad that was not an option :(

Thursday was a day to SLEEP IN- my rough day yesterday earned me a bit of a sleep in and stayed in bed till 10am. Although most would argue- Caitlin nothing bad really happened today and your day was not that rough. My response- you go workout for 3-4 hours a day, do the diet I am doing and let me know how you feel- Okay? Yes! I have hit the final stage the LAST push but I am more stressed and overwhelmed than ever. I was at the gym today from 1:30pm-6pm a very long time! But I must say I did cardio, had a break, ate a meal, relaxed in the massage chairs and then it was back to weight training and more cardio! Surprisingly today I did not need a nap after my workout, my energy was fine but my muscles are SO sore words cannot even explain. I felt like I had hit the age of 80 when I had to walk up those stairs at Goodlife. WOOO- I FEEL THE BURN!

I spent the rest of the night prepping meals, a little more abs and glutes workouts at home and posing. I use my DVD from last years OPA competition to guide me in practice. When my number is called out I play it out as if I am being called out again and practice, practice, practice. I must say if your posing right this is a workout on its own. Flex this muscle and this and this along with this one, smile, look pretty and natural- hmm okay?!

I spent the rest of my night relaxing with Sami watching a little television and I even got myself a nice little massage. THANK-YOU! It was sad because tomorrow Sami is headed off to Brazil for a week and I am not so sure what I will do without him. I am pretty sure he is REALLY happy to get away from grouchy Caitlin and is enjoying is getaway. I figured I owed it to him Friday morning to make him a little goodbye breakfast. I decided to keep it healthy and made him some protein crepes with a side of sliced apples- YUM! Was kind of jealous not going to lie!

This would have been a good morning snack too eh?

It was now off to work the morning at the salon from 9am-2pm and surprisingly the shift went by extremely quickly. Mid way through my shift Sami came and said his final goodbye before his hot sunny getaway. Okay I am not a loser but after he left I started crying- I AM DEPLETED OKAY!! haha I felt a little dumb but hey, he has put up with me for the past 2 months and has never gotten mad once, as I have yelled, cried, freaked out- he's been quite the helper and has supported me 110%. 

I finished off my mid afternoon at the gym OF course and headed home to prep my meals for Saturday and quite to be honest RELAX. It felt nice to have absolutely NOTHING to do and I most definitely soaked it all in I watched some old Jersey Shore episodes, enjoyed reading Facebook and laying down in a warm comfy blanket!

Let's hope my weekend is Joyful & EXCITING :)
P.S. Can you tell my sugar depleted?? 

Till tomorrow bloggers,

Caitlin Cooke #11

It's A Passion

Hey Everyone! So it has been quite some time since I have posted any new blogs and I am extremely sorry but when it comes down to it meal prepping, cardio, weight training and quite frankly SLEEP are the most important things for right now. So even though I actually have a lot of my blogs typed up I am going to give you a brief summary of everything that has happened the past few weeks.

At the end of March I ended up getting my hair re-done my the amazing Miss Crystal and also got new extensions yahoo! The other ones needed to come out they were getting sooo worn out, I felt like a WOMAN again- p.s. extensions are evil- you will become addicted to them if you get them I PROMISE YOU! Hmm what else has happened? I met with the lovely Stacey a few weeks ago to do her hair for an 80's prom shoot- she looked gorgeous leaving my place and had the perfect hair for the shoot! It was nice finally chatting with someone who has been through the same thing, can relate to the exact same mood swings, break downs and CRAVINGS. I definitely missed this girl and was absolutely amazing seeing her again!

I have been chatting and texting a lot with my girl Johanna. We will both be competing on April 30th although unfortunately at different events which really does suck because I would love to watch her compete. When ever I have a break down or cravings I always text Jo she is there to encourage me, keep my mind on track and talk through my goals with me. I cannot stress enough how amazing this has been for me to have her by my side through this rough haul. Thank-you girl you have been quite the blessing in MANY ways.

A few weekends ago, WRECK MMA put on another great event at Tailgators- Throwdown in O-Town and it was quite the full house. These live Muay Thai fights were quite impressive for amateurs I must say- it was an awesome afternoon although my Ring Girl partner Christiane could not be there so it was a lot of getting up and sitting back down for me as the rounds were only two minutes long. Congrats to all the winners on your success you all did a fantastic job.

As for my training it has been going absolutely phenomenal! I am currently 18 days out (2.5 Weeks Away) and am extremely excited to dial everything in. I met Rob again last week and that put a great big smile on my face- I left with less body fat % again and looking lean, mean and muscular :) The only downfall about these last weeks is the body exhaustion. My body is struggling to KEEP UP and I have to force myself with every last bit of energy I have inside me. Exercises and weights that weren't hard before are HARD NOW- strange but it's reality! After every workout I am in need of at least a 45min to hour long power nap. People may ask why I do this? Simply because I love it! I love a challenge, I love fitness and I LOVE competing. I have competed in sports my whole life and I strive to be on top- competitions give me that thrill again on an entirely new level because of wild dedication it takes to accomplish my goals.

My diet does not even bother me anymore! I am so close and so use to it that it seems like as easy as pb and jam. I can walk past Cinnabon now without holding my breath and take a deep breath in and laugh. LAUGH that I have conquered one of my biggest cravings and how those delicious cinnamon and frosting pasteries have got NOTHING over me now. My parents will be here soon to help me the last week of prepping and lets be realistic to clean my house, buy me groceries- aww love you Mommy & Daddy! I absolutely cannot wait for them to get here as they are the people I cannot wait to see and show them what I have accomplished most.

My countdown to great great events is on- 18 Days till my Comp, 24 Days till Wreck MMA-Unstoppable (which you ALL need to get tickets for its going to be WICKED) and 30 Days till my Birthday. This is going to be a good few weeks for the record book. Oh OH and I forgot to mention I will also announce my two HUGE announcements the day of my competition so stay tuned.

Love you all,
Caitlin Cooke #11

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Pampering Caitlin

Although I do not have to work this Saturday it was up bright and early for me because I was getting my hair done again. The old extensions are coming out and I get to add new color and feel my real hair for a little while. My appointment wasn't till 11am but got to the salon early to see my lovely friend and hairdresser Crystal.

It was good I got in early because I was at the salon from 10:30am-4:30pm. It took about an hour to take out my extensions, then wash my hair and dry it in order to put some new color in. We decided to go out on a wild card and try something completely new, blonde in the front, blonde chunks on top and a purple/reddish brown for the rest of my hair. It was another 2 hours to dye it and let it sit and soak up the colors in my hair. When it was time to get my hair washed out it felt so good. I have not touched or had my hair scrubbed like that in forever due to my extensions, although my hair felt SOOO light now. Finally, it was time to dry my hair and Crystal even curled it for me because I was going to be out working tonight at Tailgators. After hours of work on my hair it turned out absolutely AMAZING- we lined p some extensions to match my new hair color and will be applying them in about 2 weeks. I CANNOT WAIT!! Crystal always does the best job! Love ya girl.

New Hair :) Extensions to come soon again!

After hours sitting in a chair I headed to the mall to buy myself a cute top to wear for tonight. I bought a fancy tank top from Sirens and while I was there ran into a beautiful long summer dress I HAD TO try it on. It fit perfectly and it was a must buy for my possibly getaway in May. I finished up at the mall around 6pm and went out for a quick dinner with Megan since we have not spent barely any time together because of my hectic training. My boyfriend picked us both up after we were done and I rushed home to change and get ready for the night.

I was at Tailgators for the UFC fights and promote Wreck's next event Throwdown in O-Town which are live Muay Thai fights behind held April 2nd right at Tailgators at 3pm. Message me if you are interested in tickets it is a show you most definitely do not want to miss. We finished up areound 12:30am and the headed back to my place for a relaxing night.

It is now almost 2am and I have had one very very long day and it is time to hit the sheets.
Till tomorrow bloggers,
Caitlin Cooke #11